What the hell is wrong with me recently? I found out that I don't really understand myself... Gosh.
First, it's about me and my friends. Is it really my fault? Maybe it's my fault for skipping the band practices. But it's not that I want know?!! I really don't have the mood to go for the practices. Fine la. It's my fault kay?? Sorry. I admit that I shouldn't judge these stuffs through my mood. I should have went to the practices. Then, it's like all my friends 'bu shuang' me. That's what I think. I know that the competition is near already. But, honestly, I don't feel like going for the competition. I know I shouldn't have thought that way. But, I can't stand the stress I'm suffering. Maybe to all of you, it's just an excuse for me to skip the practices. But, that's how I feel. And I'm telling you guys all these. Who knows. Someday you guys will visit my blog. But, I'm trying to tell you guys what I think and how I feel. I'm trying to stop myself from quitting the band. =/
Second, yesterday 'he' called me. His friend passed away. And he was crying nonstop. I was so shocked as that was the first time he cried in front of me. I was so helpless that time and I can't do anything. Sorry. I'm so useless eh? I'm not good in consolling people. My close friends know this. All I can do is just stand by his side, listening to him crying, doing nothing. Haiz. What the hell man. All I can say is sorry to him.
That's all. =//
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